You Lead

You Lead - Jamie Grace

So yesterday when I was browsing some songs on jog.fm - I came across this song. The word going through my head yesterday was "Stronger". So I was looking for songs that fit that word. Songs that would inspire, motivate and keep me going in the direction of becoming Stronger.

I've probably listened to this song a hundred times this morning. I love the catchy little beat, but the lyrics are striking a good cord with me too.

"You Lead"

I've got waves that are tossin' me,
Crashin' all over my beliefs,
And in all sincerity, Lord,
I wanna be yours,
So pull me out of this mess I'm in,
Cause I know I'm wanderin'
Lead my soul back home again,
I've always been yours,

And this world may push, may pull,
But your love it never fails,

You lead, I'll follow, Your hands hold my tomorrow,
Your grip, Your grace, You know the way,
You guide me tenderly,
When you lead, I'll follow,
Just light the way and I'll go,
Cause I know what you got for me is more than I can see,
So lead me on, on, on and on,
Just lead me on, on, on and on,

As a child I heard your voice,
But as a girl I made my choice,
There is no other way for me,
I'm devoted to you,
You're my peace on the heavy days,
You're the warmth of an autumn blaze,
Your love carries me away,
And it's never too soon, no...

And this world may push, may pull,
But your mercy never fails,

You lead, I'll follow, Your hands hold my tomorrow,
Your grip, Your grace, You know the way,
You guide me tenderly, yeah,
When you lead, I'll follow,
Just light the way and I'll go,
Cause I know what you got for me is more than I can see,
So lead me on, on, on and on,
Just lead me on, on, on and on,

Sometimes when I wake up, I don't wanna rise up, Out of my bed, too many thoughts in my head,
Don't wanna be who I used to be,
Gonna take the back seat and let you lead,
And I...
Need to stop, need to stop,
Cause I'm going too fast,
And I...
Know my God is still God, And you got my back,

You lead, I'll follow, Your hands hold my tomorrow,
Your grip, Your grace, You know the way,
You guide me tenderly, yeah,
When you lead, I'll follow,
Just light the way and I'll go,
Cause I know what you got for me is more then I can see,
So lead me on...
Lead me on...

And I...
Need to stop, need to stop,
Cause I'm going too fast,
And I...
Know my God is still God, And you got my back,
You got my back,
I know ya got me, I know ya got me,
I know ya got me, Lead me on...

 

When I moved to Ohio, September 2005, my life was a very big mess. Somewhere along I-70, between Missouri & Ohio, Carrie Underwood's song Jesus take the wheel, came on the radio. It was at that moment, when I said, “Okay, God you drive. I can’t do this on my own. I don’t even know where to start. I don’t know how to make this work. I know I will periodically be a nagging backseat driver and you may have to remind me that it’s not about me, that I am not in control, and that’s okay if you’ll just save me from this road I’m on. I’m all yours God.”

 

I feel as if this song, You Lead, is reminding me, it's saying, "Hey, whose driving here???" My life's not the mess it was back in 2005. I've come a long, long way and I know it's all because I handed the reins over. So let me break this song down my way:

 

I've got waves that are tossin' me - From time to time yes I do in a variety of forms. It maybe something from my past sneaking in and trying to rob me of my peace or it maybe the way I feel before an event like a Sprint Triathlon or that the thought of 26.2. I think 'waves tossin' describes the way my stomach feels about those things perfectly!

 

Crashin' all over my beliefs - in this world, something crashin' all over my beliefs, sounds like constant company.

Lead me back home again - since moving to England a lot of times I feel as if I'm drifting away from God. I have to remember that and keep it in check. Without my friends and church family in Ohio...there is a deep longing. I felt so close to God there. England has been a growing place, that's for sure. Of course, looking back Ohio was too. :)

You lead I'll follow - sometimes I think I'm following only to find out I took a wrong turn or got distracted a long the way. I was on the fence about the London marathon, but I still had to make peace with not getting in, odd as that sounds. I found out just before my training session yesterday, so on the drive there I had a good think about it. Perhaps it isn't time yet, perhaps I'm meant to do a different one, perhaps I'm not ready, strong enough mentally, perhaps I really am meant to run my first one with Holly (my sister) or perhaps something better is just over the horizon and I need to wait and be patient...again. I don't know the answer really but what I do know is what he's got for me is more than I can see. It doesn't mean I won't register or put my name in for others, it means when the right one is right - it will happen. Right now, I'm hoping the right one...will include my friends, birthday cake & Paris. Peace washed over me like the warmth of an autumn blaze.

Sometimes when I wake up, I don't wanna rise up, Out of my bed - very true, 6 a.m. comes early and my bed is warm and snugly...it's really hard to get up & get going, especially when that get up and get going means meeting the running club for a 7 or 8 a.m run on a weekend! I have a tendency to just lounge...so I have to make sure that I'm not over indulging in my 'lounging'. :)

Too many thoughts in my head - I keep a much busier life these days and have a lot different things I try to keep up with...and fail...still working on that :)

Don't wanna be who I used to be - No, no I don't! 24/7 pajama mama, 160 lb, lazy...NO! That is NOT who I want to be! In Ohio, I learned I had to get out and about, out of the pj's and make some friends. Here in England, I've learned that I need to add exercise, clean eating, and living a little to the mix. What's that saying you hear Christian's use time and time again, "I'm constant work in progress". Yep, I still am and this new person I'm becoming, well I'm finally learning to love her.

Gonna take the back seat and let you lead - and now I've my priorities back in order!

And I...Need to stop, need to stop, Cause I'm going too fast - and hopefully next time it doesn't take not getting into a marathon (which I still find an absolute crazy idea) for me to realize that I need to take a few steps back, re-examine where I am at and where I am going, find my focus and keep it. But most of all stop to thank God for all far he has brought me, the things he has helped me overcome, and for teaching me that I am far more capable of things than I give myself credit for.

And I...Know my God is still God, And you got my back - to remember this myself. I tell people this all the time, but when it comes to my own back I get a little forgetful.

Isn't it funny how certain songs speak to each of us in different ways? This song will be going on my Running playlist to serve as a constant reminder that I am not in control, but with patience, perseverance and faith I will continue to become stronger, physically, mentally, and faithfully.